A time to cry.....
Last night, and into today, I've been really bummed.
My unwelcome monthly visitor came Monday. I even knew that she would be coming this month. Thats part of what scares me, but, I've learned every now and then for the sake of my sanity, I have to eliminate the guesswork, even if it means a certain no on the big test. I'm learning not to spend my money on those too..... Anyways, knowing the answer gives my heart a bit of a reprieve so that this next cycle, I have the energy to hope again.
I tried to sit down and do some research, the doctor when I met with him had a student and the student asked about a symptom that I didn't ever notice before, and now I do because I know to look for it. Maybe its coincidence and I notice only because he said something and I'm seeing patterns that don't exist, maybe I really do have a symptom that sparks a red flag, idk. I'm at the point where the research freaks me out. I don't wanna know. I just want the doctor to say have this test, do this, and voila! Congratulations!
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